Infusion Chair 4

Zephaniah317_1920x1080_1So, tomorrow is the big day…my first day of chemotherapy.  My appointment printout says that I am scheduled for a port draw at 8:30 followed by lab work and an exam before my 9:30 infusion in chair #4.  They must have known that details and information  help me process things.  I was able to visit the chemo room at my last appointment, so I know exactly where I will be.  I will be getting infusions every day this week.  Tomorrow will be a full day and the others will be 9:00-2:00ish.

Although I am keeping it together for the most part, I am a bundle of emotions.

I am scared.  What will it feel like when the meds start flowing?  Will it hurt when they access my port?  Will I throw up on the first day?  How many times will I throw up?  I expect that once I have the first day under my belt, I will gain some confidence walking in for day #2.

I am anxious.  I want to get this started.  The sooner I start, the sooner I get to ring the bell.  I am not sure how much I will sleep tonight.

I am hopeful.  I am confident that God has put this team in place to care specifically for me.  I know that I will not be alone tomorrow.  I will be supported by all the love and prayers of my family and friends.  The most important thing I know is that my heavenly Father will be by my side.  His love can and WILL calm my fears and keep me hopeful.

2 thoughts on “Infusion Chair 4

  1. So thankful that I have the privilege of reading your innermost thoughts during this “c” journey. I continue to keep you in my prayers and in my prayers.

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  2. I’m praying for you and thinking of you today. I knowbeyond a shadow of doubt that you will be carried in the arms of God all day long. You will be held. I love you, but He loves you the most!

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