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A lesson in grace…the cancer kind


What is grace?  All of you who have made the life-changing decision to be a Christian have experienced God’s saving grace.  I suspect that each of us felt the effects of grace in that moment without truly knowing what God’s grace would mean in our lives.  Ephesians 2:8 says “For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith–and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God.”  So grace is a gift.

We associate gifts with birthdays and Christmas and sometimes when we are lucky,  we get gifts “just because” from a loved one.  As lovely and meaningful as those gifts were, did any of them save your life?  I mean really save you?  God’s gift of saving grace brings us from death into life.  2 Corinthians 5:15 says “He died for everyone so that those who receive his new life will no longer live for themselves. Instead, they will live for Christ, who died and was raised for them.”  So this gift is for everyone.

Where does cancer fit into all this?  After all cancer is no gift, right?  My pastor came to visit me two times during my hospital hysterectomy stay.  First, he showed up at the hospital to pray with me and my family before surgery.  He had scheduled this visit and I expected to see him.  The second visit was a very welcome surprise the day after surgery.  I was able to share more of my story with him and he said something very profound that started my exploration of grace.  He said that when we face challenges,  God gives us grace sufficient for those challenges and now…God had given me cancer grace .

Cancer grace?  Hmm…does that mean that the grace God is providing to me at this point in my life is tailor-made for my circumstances?  I am completely convinced that it means exactly that.  Not just for me, but for every one of us.  2 Corinthians 12:9 says “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”  There is absolutely no way that I could face cancer on my own.  It is only with the bravery and strength that comes through the grace of my Heavenly Father.  How have I missed the consciousness of this miraculous gift all my life?  God’s SUSTAINING grace is His love for us individualized in such a way that it meets our exact needs at the exact moment we need it.  If your mind isn’t blown right now, you either already know this or you need to reread my blog.  I always knew that God loved me and cared about me, but to think that in His supernatural, Omniscient way, He is our very real, down-in-the-trenchs support.  Among many other examples, the one that sticks out for me is when the first drop of chemo started, I began to feel overwhelmed.  At that same moment, “I will” by Citizen Way began playing on my Spotify playlist.  I knew at that moment He was with me to hold me through it.  Remember in my first blog I said that I wasn’t sure of the purpose of my cancer journey…well, I think I am beginning to understand and I am ever so grateful.

Here’s an update on my chemotherapy.   I have completed 2 sessions.  My port access was much easier than expected.  I am tolerating the chemo without nausea so far.  I am very tired and sleep escapes me at times because of the steroids that accompany the chemo, but I feel so much better than anticipated.  I know things may change as the medication accumulates in my body, but for now I am ok.  I am very thankful for your prayers.  They are being answered.